Often times I need to clear my head and recharge. I finally had a chance to do that. A real walk. A walk with purpose. I took a few selfie pictures and then put my phone away to enjoy the sounds of water hitting rocks and boats whipping by. I even saw one lonely swan chilling and asked out loud…”why are you alone?” I realized we’re a lot alike this Swan and I. Alone. It wasn’t bad. I use to do this a lot in years past, however, I’ve been so busy that I haven’t really had the chance. And so….on this day….I went, I sat, I contemplated and I smiled at the end of it all.
You ever have/had those moments when life is just flying by and you realized you had no chance to absorb anything that has happened thus far? These moments could be good or bad. Life isn’t a bed of roses as we all know. The minute you really get to sit down and take it all in is the minute you decide to finally breathe – literally and figuratively. You take a deep breathe in and an even deeper breathe out. You’ll probably laugh or cry. Maybe a good cry is exactly what you need. I know that’s what I did on this day. A good ole’ cry and a big ass smile. I think I did this for many reasons. The cry was for loss, for emptiness, for confusion, frustration, pain and hurt. I finally had time to slow down and let it all out. Let me tell you how GOOD I felt doing it. I knew doing it I would feel better, but I didn’t expect the overwhelming feeling of release I was going to feel. I felt like I let it all out on the water. I polluted it with my heart and soul. Emptied by inner being of negative vibes. I dropped it in the water to be beat down by the rough waves on the rocks, only to be sailed away…far away gone forever.
After a while I said to myself, ok…..now you know; you saw it, so let’s move it along. I finally digested the realities of recent situations and reminded myself of how damn lucky I am. Then came the laugh, followed by my smile. The warm and fuzzy feeling inside of me that knew I’d be okay. Some days are awesome and other days are lonely. Single. Never been married. No kids. Working hard while struggling with this so called ‘dating scene’ – which has been non-existent for me…and I realized that it’s okay. I’m okay. I smiled because I thought of what a freaking great summer this has been for me. Busier than last year. Working my way up and through what I love to do little by little and being recognized by my peers is huge for me. I didn’t have this ever. Prior to this, I didn’t know how to go after what I wanted. I realize now I didn’t want it bad enough at the time.
Looking at me now and the progress in just 3 years makes me look at my life prior to May 2013 and smile – I wasn’t in a good place at all during that time. I smiled because I’m happy with me now. I’m happy with the things I have pursued and the work I am doing now. I may not have all the personal elements together that people my age have now (i.e. husband, house, car, trips, etc.), but I will say being alone and living my life the way I want has not been such a bad deal. I’m picky. That much I’ve realized. I’ve met some great people along the way; some of which have been great business connects and new friends. As for the dating stuff well….I realized things happen for a reason and some people are just not a match for me. It happens. I definitely rather be honest than fake (mind you I did shaft one person by running away like a chicken shit – if you’re reading this…so sorry homie).
What’s my point here? Recharge yourself!! What a great idea! We use work, school, the kids, our families, etc. as the main excuse (majority of the time) as the reason(s) we don’t do something. What about making those things the reason we decide to do something? These decisions can be easy or not. But it’s the “taking charge” to “recharge” that stands out here.
“TAKING CHARGE TO RECHARGE” ~ Nadzzz
I’m the queen at making excuses sometimes. But I realized this has no benefit. Being honest to myself is the biggest recharging moment I could ever gift to myself. It’s taught me a lot with the way I want things; the friendships I have, keep or end; the music I listen to; the way I speak and interact with people; the man I want in my life. Recharge to get yourself right. Your internal batteries need a jolt to put you back on the right track…a clear and concise track. In blogs past I have always said this, when it comes to any aspect in your life don’t settle. Why? What justice are you doing to yourself in the decisions you’re making? Trying to convenience yourself of anything will eventually lead to lost years and a disastrous end. Recharging before making a major move helps bring clarity and a strong slap of reality that you may need. Sometimes truths are easy, joyous and great to talk about. Other times truths are a hotmess, may hurt you, another person(s), and can be the most difficult thing you ever deal with.
“TAKING CHARGE TO RECHARGE”
This is what it’s about (at least I think so). My walk on the water allowed me to reflect on myself. I’m always learning and growing. We all should be constantly doing something to recharge in order to connect back with our inner self. Connect so that the next set of decisions you make or choices you choose make sense to the life you want and the path you want to walk. These things will continue to lead you to the right people, places and things and life will bring you an abundance of joy beyond your expectation. You’ll be able to reflect on these moments of ‘recharging’ and in that moment, a big ass smile will appear on your face. That’s what happened to me.
“TAKING CHARGE TO RECHARGE”