I’ve been trying to write a blog in advance of my birthday for a few weeks now and honestly… it’s been really hard. Clearly Aug 5th has since passed and this is a late blog…but nonetheless I wrote it.
I’ve had a few experiences that have happened in the course of the weeks leading up to my birthday and thereafter that have frustrated me, made me extremely sad and made me expect better of myself and those around me. I’ve also had the polar opposite where some great things happened in between and I didn’t know what to do with myself. Someone reminded me that I can’t control things, situations or people. These things are all out of my control and for that I must learn acceptance: for when I am wrong and for the fact that I can’t change situations involving others who make choices for themselves. For the great things that have happened, I can’t control that either. Sometimes I need to learn to let it go and let it just be.
This birthday was about growth and the ability to adapt, as I continue to do so, I know I’m a cockroach – I know how to adapt. However, I don’t bother trying to fit in with people anymore. I am who I am. Deal with it. I know who you are and so I deal with that too. Why make situations difficult by being a pain in the ass? I do however internalize and deal with a lot of things myself, especially when I know I should be saying something out loud, but I don’t – what’s the point?
Acceptance – the biggest lesson I have learned this year. It’s been a hard one to learn since it’s taken me quite a few tries to get it right – which is still a work in progress. I’ve been reminded you never stop growing and learning about people and yourself. The growth factor is huge. This year has been all about growth for me as a single woman, a daughter, a sister, an aunt, a friend and a professional. Life is crazy when it throws you bumps in the road. I’m still trying to understand how to deal with some bumps and other ones I’ve been okay at letting them pass me by.
It’s been another year of life with both good and bad aspects. Most days are easy. Some days can get to you. The one thing I do know is I wouldn’t have it any other way. It’s taken me a long time to get to this place of being content with who I am and what I want. Do I have everything I want? Not yet, but you bet your ass I will get it!
Maybe you’re reading this and going through some great times…… or not. Maybe you’re pretty much content with how things are – that’s great! I’ve said this before and I will say this again, LIFE is based on CHOICES. Choices are ROADS for us to get to the next stage of our lives. Keep riding the wave or else do something about it. The fear you have and hold onto will always hold you back – nothing is ever easy. Face it. Do it. Find your passion and make it happen – whatever it is. If it’s not about a passion then make it about living a better life, a life YOU have always wanted. Don’t settle for less. You can’t always be the “nice guy/girl”. Sometimes making hard decisions suck. In the long run, would you rather lie to yourself and the people around you? Think about that.
For me, there have been a lot of things I’ve done that I do not regret. Any past regret I have had, I made peace with (for the most part); be it a situation or a person. I’m very proud of myself for the moves I’ve made to date. Clearing your life of people who don’t contribute to your growth (or you to theirs) is a big step and a hard one. But it must be done. I rather walk my road to greatness with a handful of people then with a mass crowd of fakes.
I love my birthday because it gives me that time to reflect on everything I was, I became and now am. Happy Belated Birthday to Me! I know a lot of you out there HATE your own birthday. This makes me sad. Why? Is it because it’s “just another day” (because this is the normal thing you say now)? Is it because you’re alone (you won’t be the first or last)? Look…..this is the one day that celebrates your entrance to this Earth. If you hate your life than I think you should finally do something about it.
I had such a wonderful birthday this year. I don’t know how I will top it next year, but I know greatness awaits me. Was there more I wanted? Hell yeah! It’s just not my time yet to have it all… #OneDay. There’s so much happening and so little time to get to everything. I look forward to new adventures, people, places and things.
Thank You to everyone who sent messages via FB, Twitter, IG and text. I tried to respond to as many as I could. I feel really blessed this year.
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– One Love, Nadzzzz
P.s. Here’s a little sneak peek of what I did on my ACTUAL birthday. I went to see Joe Thomas live aka RnB Artist JOE. One word = AMAZING!!! I may have been alone on my birthday, but I rather it this way than to be living a lie with someone.
Joe Thomas aka JOE performing the classic “Night Nurse” by legendary reggae artist Gregory Isaacs.